A year later

So I just read one of my blogs from June of last year..

ha ha ha--I said--Goodbye for now, I am on the internet too much and guess what--I wrote again about 15 days later.

I didn't do it on purpose, but It has been almost a year since I wrote on this blog, but just so you know--

I am here...I am kicking...I have another child...and life goes on!

So until next time (which I hope will be more like 15 days and not 300 days) goodnight!

how do people do it

as I write this I have 3 loads of laundry to do, a kitchen to clean, 3 loads of laundry to put away, a sewing pile that has sat there for months, papers to organize, shirts that need ironed (and never will be--I'll just keep washing them until I can remember to take them out of the dry before they cool), a kitchen to clean, and that is just what I can see from where I am sitting.

BUT I am so tired. I don't know how to break out of this. Yes I know I am pregnaunt and sick, but still 10 hours of sleep a night and still needing a nap during the day...that is NOT normal.

I have been thinking alot about what my core desire is. I don't have one. I have all the "right" answers. I want to be a good mom, wife, house keeper and all that...but really nothing makes me full of passion.

People keep telling me--oh just wait and you will feel better, but how long do you wait?

How do you fall asleep at night when you just toss and turn? How do you wake up in the morning when you know it is going to be the exact same as yesterday?

So how do you find what drives you?
How are some people naturally full of energy--so much so that sleep is a bother to them?
How do people stay on top of life?

frustration

why do people go against something?



I understand being against something that is bad---child porno---violence---dog fights---and all that stuff, but why be anti something that isn't hurting anyone?





I posted a post on facebook about religion and I got some negative comment right away from someone who used to be a member of my religion. I understand you don't agree with the teachings (or else you would still be in it), but why do you feel like it is OK to attack what I believe.

just frustrated!

I am totally heartless

I found out a guy I knew in high school died this week.

I am heartless because it does not effects my life---this person hit on me (on facebook) one time right after I told him that my husband was due home any minute.

Since then I have avoided him and dreaded being online at the same time he was. Why I didn't delete his friend ASAP I don't know.

I feel bad for his family and the sadness they are going through, but really I am feeling a little relieved that I don't have to deal with him online anymore.

Go ahead judge me...I am totally heartless.

still another week

Yep--still here, but not alot of time to blog on vacation (so you would think I have MORE time to blog, but I am enjoying the no pressure--not even feeling guilty about not blogging!)

I will see you all in about a week.

:)

life will start again in 2-3 weeks.

Life has gotten the better of me lately.

I will return in a few weeks with more (hopefully) time on my hands to download pictures of all our adventures this summer and with more of my ranting and ravings! :)


Actually this week I will be preparing for the 24th...next week surviving the 24th...and then the next week going to Denver---so maybe mid August life will work again.

the earth has been covered in water

and we know that one day it will be baptized by fire--but HOW will that happen--

I think this is a good possible way---

This article is really long so I will sum it up.

The sun shoots off these solar flares all the time, but all of a sudden they have kind of stopped, making the sceintists wonder what will happen when the next solar cycle happens...

hum---

is this a sign of the times or just another interesting science fact?